Lucky guy...

So- My little girl turns one year old tomorrow. That means that I've been a father for one whole year. It's been an amazing change. It really has been a change. I never guessed that I could love as much as I do now. I have an amazing wife who loves me more than I thought anyone would. I've seen her grow and change so much in the last year. It's been inspiring to watch her bloom as a mother.

Our daughter has been the light of our life. Her mom called her sunshine from the beginning. She is the light of our life and the sunshine in our day. She is such a happy baby and has loved everyone from day one. She definitely gets her outgoingness from her mommy.

I love being a father. I have no idea what on earth I am doing. Unfortunately there is no class for being one. Never would I have imagined that I'd love a child the way I love her. She's loud and smells like a child, but she's mine and I love her like crazy. She has such her own little personality. She wants so much to be like us already. She plays in the dishwasher, eats pork rinds, "talks" on her phone (even though she just babbles), she talks to anything she sees, she is so curious and SO persistent. She loves exploring and figuring things out.

In the last few weeks she's learned how to hug back when we hug her. What a treat to have the little girl you love so much wrap her arms around your neck and squeeze. I do miss her wanting to cuddle me as she falls asleep. She's into putting her self to sleep now.

My heart hurts every time I leave for work in the morning. Leaving my two favorite girls for the day makes me wish that I could find some job where I never had to leave them and could spend all day with them. Suddenly I don't care at all about money, job title or anything. I just wish that I could just retire today and spend the rest of my life with them.

I'm so glad that my wife was willing to have our daughter and be her mother. I'm amazed by the amount of love she has for her and how seriously she takes her responsibility as a mother.

I am one lucky guy...