Fall?

Hrm... our template is all kinds of out of whack. Maybe if I post something it'll go back to normal.

Fall showed up! Bam, Sunday morning, out of the blue, we were chilly. This is the creepiest feeling ever. For most of the last year, we've lived in nothing but spring or summer and I have spent most of my time trying not to die of heat exhaustion. Solei is really not used to wearing clothes, and yesterday when I tried to put a jacket on her she flipped out. I rushed to the store to buy some pants for the poor girl (fyi, Old Navy is having a wee sale on kids clothes, I got a few essentials). All of the sudden, I'm trying to keep her warm - I can wear pants again - and wear anything else I want because I won't eventually pass out from overheating. I missed fall last year, and now it's just weirding me out. I love fall most of all the seasons, but I'm just confused it's here!

We are just under a month away from Solei's first birthday, and it's hitting us hard too. I can't say I miss newborn Solei or the first few months of her life because in all honesty, I'm really not sure if life can be worse than it was back then. I was putting away her tiny clothes yesterday and expected to get misty, but I was mostly relieved. Jared and I are so thankful for our lives now - surprised, really. But then there's also an unsettled feeling as well - how much longer can something like this last? Jared is just getting comfortable with his job, I'm teaching a nice bit and gigging almost too much, and we've got this Solei thing down pretty well. Of course we don't see much of Jared, but that's the way it's been since we got back from Brasil and I'm finding things to keep me busy.

But for the last 10 years, everything has worked out in year increments - I moved every year. I've never decorated or unpacked fully, and I'm still shy to do it here. I HATE packing, and the more we unpack and settle, the more I have to pack again.

And now summer has moved to fall. I never thought it would again - the inevitable switch that I eluded all year, like some massive holding pattern and suddenly life is back to normal. I've rejoined the world again. I don't know whether to fear it or embrace it, just in case somehow it leaves me again.

At least I have an excuse to go shopping!! Yay warm clothes!